September 12th, 2017
Catching you up.
Sorry about the lack of posts the past week, but I’ve been trying to juggle so many things that I didn’t get a chance to log in here.
This should get you up to speed!
One thing that really took a big part of my time wasn’t work this time, but DIYing.
In fact, we had to move out of our flat and moved back into what is known as ‘Felix’s office’ (the smaller, cute flat we used to live in).
Because we don’t live here at all times, but we often invite guests to stay over, and Felix still works from here, I like to keep it looking nicely – although it is a challenge to make sure it does when you don’t live in a place – so now that I’ve moved back in, I’m trying to freshen it up by doing some fun pain jobs, DIYing the bathroom floor, adding some shelves and so on. I believe I should be able to do a blog post once I’m done, but things are still looking messy at the moment, so it will need to wait a little longer.
I had decided to do a haul and managed film one, after collecting things for about a month. Compared to what most youtubers have to offer, with plenty of items at cheaper prices, my hauls have been more focused on fewer things, that I carefully select, that are for sure less affordable but unique.
Since having a more ethical mindset when it comes to shopping – I’m not going to lie – it’s been a bit though to share things I wear or buy. The moment you try to bring awareness, anything you do is going to be looked at more critically.
I never claim to know everything, or shop exclusively 100% ethical items, but I try my best to spread the word and be mindful when it comes to choosing what I spend my money on.
In this latest haul I’d filmed, I’ve included a few pieces that I requested from two of my favourite brands: Lazy Oaf and Lazzari. I remember the day Lazzari reached out to me, a few months back, telling me that if I ever liked anything from their website, I could simply ask and they would send it to me; and when Lazy Oaf reposted this photo on their account, it honestly made my day.
But, on the video, people seemed confused and upset by why I wouldn’t pay for the clothes myself. The things is: 90% of the things I buy from Lazy Oaf (for example) I do pay for, but since I was planning to make a haul, I saw an opportunity to request a few pieces to share.
I ended up removing this video, as well as some other hauls I’ve done in the past, because no matter what my intentions are, it just seems like these kind of videos attract more negativity than others, and it saddened me a bit.
In the same video I was ‘called out’ for saying that the video wasn’t sponsored, but I asked for a few clothes for free: sponsorship happens when a brand pays for you to include products in a video; in my case, I was not paid by any of them, and I was the one reaching out, and so I disclosed it.
Anyway, I figured I would address this here, as I’m never fully able to get my point across on videos.
Bottom line: I think that, for a little while, I will probably share things I buy in here instead of collecting them all for a Youtube video. Sorry about the small rant!
Two nights ago Maya had more of her stomach issues. It is so hard for me to see her unwell, in pain. We brought her to the vet and are currently giving her medicines, but she is really spaced out, and doesn’t walk much. At least the pain seems to be under control, which is good, and she seems to be getting better.
My fear was that she was going to feel as bad as last time, when we had to leave her at the emergency for days. Luckily she is here with me, sleeping. (The photo up here was taken days before she felt sick).
I’ve also got around filming a video with Dogy, which was my most requested one at the moment. It sucks a bit that lots of hateful people are coming over because of the current situation, or even a lot of my own marzipans are asking me to speak up.
If I have to discuss something with Felix, I do it privately. I’m not going to be public about something this sensitive, and it had nothing to do with the video I posted either. I filmed it before it all happened, but people took offence in me wearing this hoodie in the video. It ruined it for me as normally I would interact with people in the comments (that’s the best bit when I upload), but I was put off by it all.
AH. Trust me when I say that making a living out of sharing things on the internet is both the most freeing and amazing lifestyle you can have, but really delicate and somewhat mentally draining at the same time. Anything you do is constantly being observed and criticised, you get pulled into things you have no part in, and if you don’t address certain things, you get called names, and rumours spread. It is difficult, at times.
Even my Instagram photos are filled with comments that are totally unrelated, so here I am, hoping that I can have more personal conversations in this space as I distance myself from Youtube and Instagram till the mess is cleared.
To end this post in a different note (it turned too sour, sorry!) I’m gonna talk about things I have been enjoying. Number one on my list: Fargo.
Felix and I started watching it, finally, after months of PJ telling us how good it is. We loved season 1. So good! Have you seen it?
We have tried to watch season 2 as well, but we can’t seem to get into it as much. What did you think about it? Is it worth watching?
We have also started American Horror Story Cult, and after finishing the first episode, I’m hooked! Are you watching it too?
Oh, and the final thing: IT. I really liked it. Felix not so much. I didn’t read the book, and didn’t watch the original movies, but I was very impressed by this one. I thought the IT costume was incredible, most of the actors were so good, the locations and set were great, and the whole movie was both enjoyable and creepy. Are you planning to go see it? Or if you have already, what did you think of it?
Alright. That’s all for today.
I hope your week is going well!