July 15th, 2016
What they say is true: you never stop learning.
It’s been almost exactly 5 years since I have graduated in what translates to English as “Tourism Expert”. I remember thinking that studying tourism, economy and languages would not be very helpful for the life I had planned for myself, but it turns out that travelling is one of the things I truly love doing, and speaking four languages is pretty useful. And economy, well, I hated it… but it helps now, since I do run my own company.
So after all, that choice was pretty spot on for me. But, there is a but: as I have previously expressed, and many people can easily tell, I am more interested in the art field, and I never really gave that a proper chance. Sure, I paint, I snap photos, I edit videos and I make my clothes and clothing lines – which I am very happy about – but I always felt like I wanted to learn more, on a more professional level. All I know in the art field is what I have gathered on my own, and although that could have been enough, I wanted to push a little more this time.
And so yes, I went back to “school”.
For the longest time I was stuck, mainly due to two factors:
- I do live a busy lifestyle: it might not seem like it, but meetings, emails, travelling and coming up with original material (on top of shooting and editing) does require some time. To that, add personal interests and the time flies by. All of this means that I did not have the intention of going to a university, as the time commitment would be too much for me right now. Also, struggling with social anxiety, thinking about being back in an environment where you are surrounded by people, didn’t seem so appealing;
- I have so many interests and passions. Sometimes I think too many. In a way, this is perfectly fine, because I can explore and learn new things about different subjects; but when it comes to having to focus on one specifically, how do you pick?!
Because of the above, I have been pushing my need of learning away for a long time. But finally, I felt like I had to take control over the situation and make a move.
I scouted the internet for months, before finding the best course I could find. I figured if I didn’t have the time for university, the next best thing would be a course. I originally wanted one in my area to which I could go to in the evening, but turns out all the ones I was most interested in begin at the end of September. And my family and friends know all too well that any time I put my mind into something, I make it happen, fast.
So another option was an online course. I didn’t consider it earlier because so many seem a bit sketchy, but eventually I did came across one that seemed to be exactly what I needed, and incredibly well put together.
So now I am an Interior Design student. Only yesterday I turned in my first assignment, and I’m not going to lie, it feels strange and a bit scary to be back at being evaluated by someone, and been paired up with a tutor, but so far is going really well; I feel so extremely inspired that I stop on the street anytime I see an interesting building, or a cool café, just to observe it or take a photo of it.
And if you, like me, might be struggling to decide on which subject to focus on, what helped me was listing out all of the different interests I have, and give some thought to what I would like to do in the future. This is hard. For me it’s so difficult because I have a career on Youtube and making videos is my priority, but at the same time the idea of having a job on the side always crossed my mind: for years I had the thought of re-storing and decorating homes, and now that I’m renovating my bathroom and I have revamped the old flat Felix and I own, I felt like it wasn’t such an impossible thing to pursue.
What I didn’t want to do, tho, was to rush into it, but instead take my time to really understand and study the subject, and eventually obtain a degree.
It will take me between 6 months to a year, but I’m very motivated and truly inspired by learning new things about something I care about.
I was a bit scared to share this, to be honest, because I do feel like some people on the internet like to take my interests and make them seem so insignificant, but I’m so happy to have made this decision and finally pushed myself to try out a course (if you have anxiety and any small thing seem like a huge achievement, you will understand how I feel; even just signing up was a massive step for me) that I realised sharing this with you meant more to me than the remote chance of someone leaving a negative comment. I also usually worry about sharing things too soon, but with me being on the internet, it almost makes me feel like I’m keeping something from you if I don’t talk about it. So I hope you don’t mind!
I do know that most of you in here are people I can trust, share things with and overall have a nice chat with, and that’s why I come here to talk about anything that goes on in my life, no matter what it is.
Again, me putting time into studying won’t take away any time from making videos: that’s what I love doing and will continue as normal, as well as posting frequently in here, but I am very excited about this new adventure as well. 🙂
Wish me luck!